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Big Bang Theory

I have always loved fireworks – maybe it’s the memory of Guy Fawkes Day back in Wales when we were kids, when on the 5th of November the entire village would congregate in a field and all the kids would get sparklers and there would be a big bon fire where we would toast marsh-mallows and drink hot chocolate…and then at the end of the night there was fireworks…all that light, black sky and stars and then all those beautiful colours…

New Year’s Ever 2010 was unbelievable. I stood on my rooftop as the year – as the decade – came to a close, and after what has possibly been the most insane year of my life – I reflected on a year where, from one perspective there was such a convoluted mess consisting of so many life changing events, and from another perspective, such intricacy and even a delicate mathematical order in the delivery of each of those events that it was an unmistakable and beautiful, poignant demonstration of the affection of the Love God for his precious daughter in every single minute detail of my life, from every single painful, beautiful, unfair and emotionally exhausting day of my grandmothers sickness until her death, to the fact that my apartment ticks every single box of my dream apartment list, and then some – from high ceilings, a nice kitchen and wooden floor boards, to whimsical and inconsequential things such as being on top of a shop (reminiscent of London when we were kids) and having a usable rooftop space. I had even totally forgotten that I ever wrote that list, but God did not forget…

2010 felt like an entire decade of major life experiences strategically crammed into one year, and the last night of this unbelievable year was no disappointment. I stood on my rooftop and God completely blew my mind. It wasn’t just fireworks over the beach, made especially for me, on a gorgeous summer night. It was fireworks in my heart, fireworks in my mind, fireworks in my soul. It was affective fireworks and I learned that the Love God was right here with me even in the darkness when I could not see clearly. He was here and He was pulling out His own Big Bang Theory, telling me, in no uncertain terms, that I am his Daughter Sorubi. Loved Forever.